youth wasted? naaah...

was reading this book about a woman who has been with somebody for 5yrs (since she was 22, they broke up when she was 27) and she realized that her youth was consumed by that person. she didn't have time to experience a lot of things that single early-20s experience (hmmm..like being promiscuous?) and she regretted the last 5yrs she was too focused on her boyfriend.

it made me think. i'm in a relationship that's going on six years. does this mean i have wasted my youth? i am 28 now. but i don't feel as if i have wasted my time at all. i still love my partner, more so than the day i first realized i love her. so i guess it depends on how your relationship fares. if you grow old together, and you've been with your partner since you were 23, would it really matter if all your experiences in life include that person? of course, like every thing else in life, being in a couple has perks as well as its downside.

take today for example, my partner is going to visit her cousins and she's gonna spend the night there. and i dont wanna go with her because the last 2wkends we've spent there already. i wanna see my sister. it'll be basically the 1st time in 3years that we wouldn't be sleeping together in the same bed while both of us are in the same country. what's more is that, my sis can't come tonight, she'll only be able to go to my place tomorrow as she has a date tonight. so i'll be totally alone in a 1 bedroom apartment. if it were a studio flat, i'd probably be ok but thing is, am a scaredy cat and a 1 bedroom flat has so many areas i wouldn't be able to see at one glance. i could always go with my partner to her cousins' place but i don't want to. am not used to being alone. am scared yet am thrilled at the prospect of conquering my fear of being alone. so there's a downside but there's a perk as well.

another is, i dont have a driving license. my partner has a car and a license ;> so i can't go anywhere i want to at any given time unless i'd brave the traffic as well as the lack of fast cabs here in dubai. so most of the time, if not all, am at the mercy of my partner's whims. tho' to be fair, she always asks me where i wanna go and we normally go to places i wanna go to.

also, when you're alone; you eat when you wanna eat, cook when you feel like it, sleep til the next day, do nothing and all will still be fine. the place you straightened up a week ago would still be not-messy (unless of course you are a messy person). BUT the upside of being a couple is, you'd be forced to cook/eat elaborate food so you'd be able to take in all the vitamins and minerals you're supposed to get everyday, you'd be forced to do stuff both of you enjoys so you don't waste days.

so, i guess it really depends on the kind of person you are. if you are the type who gets suffocated when you have a companion every single day of your life, being in a couple in definitely not for you. tho' am not a perfect couple person either i need alone days as well. every once in while is enough for me. like every other saturday for example, i have the day all to myself as my partner goes to work. and this set up does wonders to my senses. and don't get me wrong, i am a very tolerant person. i let my partner go out---alone whenever she asks me. a few hours with her friends without me every once in while is okay. it's even healthy for the relationship. you get to grow individually.