a cosmic joke?

i reiterate, i am such a mediocre writer. .if even the word writer can be applied to somebody who writes like me.. but as such, i am still gonna put down some thoughts here..in other words, kebs ;>

so...
for a few months now i have resorted to having an escape..from my reality...i go to this fantasy land during the day to..i dunno..prolly forget the mundanity of this thing i call life..that is not to say that my life is actually ordinary..not really..im making no sense at all..see? i am such a poor writer..

anyway, i escape...i talk..i listen...i dunno it prolly helps that i really have no clue as to the reality of the one on the other side of the spectrum...there is the perceived reality of course but that's just it, perceived...mostly, i do not know anything..

this actually is not the first time i did this..the escaping part...ive spoken to lots but..but..they all remained in virtuality...i always made sure that my reality and my escape do not mix but..but...i made a mistake...one small mistake..i used my stupid bb in replying to one email..and voila! there goes my first and last name and the company i work for all in one...i had no choice but to come clean ;> which to this day i hope is really not a mistake...

haaiz..it's as if somebody's playing jokes on me...tsk..